It's the end of July!
If this summer were anything like the past two years (around this time), I would've have been gearing up to walk into a classroom. Making lesson plans, creating procedures, establishing lofty academic goals for my students, generally freaking out about being responsible for other people's children... I would be going into the classroom.
This year is different. (Obviously. I kind of set that up with the headline.)
I am unemployed. It's my four-letter word. One that is all too familiar for some. One that a lucky few can avoid.
I'm college-educated. I was enrolled in a highly-selective service program for 2 years. I've done the internships. And yet, here I am.
Unemployed.
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If this summer were anything like the past two years (around this time), I would've have been gearing up to walk into a classroom. Making lesson plans, creating procedures, establishing lofty academic goals for my students, generally freaking out about being responsible for other people's children... I would be going into the classroom.
This year is different. (Obviously. I kind of set that up with the headline.)
I am unemployed. It's my four-letter word. One that is all too familiar for some. One that a lucky few can avoid.
I'm college-educated. I was enrolled in a highly-selective service program for 2 years. I've done the internships. And yet, here I am.
Unemployed.
[\\More after the jump]
I don't have to be unemployed: I could go back into the classroom for a 3rd year! There are always job openings for Math educators.
I feel such a conflict about going back into the classroom. I often oscillate between thinking that my experience teaching is what convinced me that I wasn't meant to be in the classroom or convincing myself that I'm truly not a teacher.
I don't honestly believe that I'm not an educator, but my inability to allow myself a modicum of grace bars me from comfortably assuming that moniker.
I want to get managerial experience. I want to embark on a journey to establish a solid foundation of operational knowledge and workplace influence. I want to be able to motivate and inspire people to innovate successful classroom practices and have an active hand in developing an environment conducive to learning and welcoming for all.
I've got a long way to go.
I feel such a conflict about going back into the classroom. I often oscillate between thinking that my experience teaching is what convinced me that I wasn't meant to be in the classroom or convincing myself that I'm truly not a teacher.
I don't honestly believe that I'm not an educator, but my inability to allow myself a modicum of grace bars me from comfortably assuming that moniker.
I want to get managerial experience. I want to embark on a journey to establish a solid foundation of operational knowledge and workplace influence. I want to be able to motivate and inspire people to innovate successful classroom practices and have an active hand in developing an environment conducive to learning and welcoming for all.
I've got a long way to go.